I Can Wait

We seek some type of love, whether it be from a friend, family member, pet, or special someone...

We've all been through it. We lay our hearts on the line, only for it to be stomped on, shattered, or broken. All we want is for some entity to love/like us as much as we love/like it.

I said love/like for a reason. A lot of us fail to differentiate the two from one another. My definition of like: to experience a delightful feeling for someone or something, enough to continue the experience, and maybe develop a love. My definition of love: to experience the highest level of euphoria for someone or something.

Now, my question is, why is it that we put ourselves through so much pain and frustration, when the someone or something doesn't experience the same level of love/like? When coming in contact with this entity, concrete or abstract, we know nothing about it. So how do you know whether you really like this thing, enough to develop a love? Oh, that's right, we like to go off of looks. When it comes right down to it, in most cases, what you thought you loved/liked (a guy/gal, a pair of shoes, school) is not what you imagined at all!

Currently, I am seeking some type of psychological help as to why I am not like most people. Like those that get offended when laughed upon becuase they 'felt' they had expressed their true feelings about their 'like' interest(s). Or those that are seeking someone to love, because they just learned to 'love' themselves. I say this because for the last 23 years of my life, 3 1/2 of which I don't really recall, 1 in which I truely miss, 7 were used finding out what I was truely about, another 1/2 disapproving parental behaviors, 6 were very confusing due to those around me, and the last 4 I have decided, that this year...I CAN WAIT!

We seek some type of love, whether it be from a friend, family member, pet, or special someone. But is it really worth the heartache and pain? Let's not go out chasing something that really isn't suppose to be. I mean, that is why we continue to suffer, right? How can you be hurt by something you never had! Don't let cloud nine, aka cloud 'like', cloud your mind! Put yourself at the top of your priority list, then shelter, food, water, education, and all the important needs...then put the wants, i.e. love. Let things happen graudally. As a sexy man once said to me, "We'll see what happens"

The love of my life isn't really a love at all. He's not even a like. He's more of a miss. But I can wait. I will wait. If it happens, it happens, but I am not going to let him spoil my future relationships as he has in the past. I would one day 'love' to give him credit, but I have to prepare for the 'like'lyhood that it will happen.