My Playlist
I cycled through my thoughts and matched them with a song. I stopped counting after Prototype. Even though the list was on repeat, I never heard the words before.
It was well put together. I forgot all about the Bittersweet memories, that once left me with Silent Tears. As the Storm continued to pour, I considered the Worst Case Scenario. I just didn't want you to Break My Little Heart but if you did, I could only Blame It On Me. I continued listening to Silly Love Song, as my thoughts became more Complicated. You see, I was once In Love With Another Man before I began Goin' Thru Changes. When You Love Somebody, and your Hands Tied, and they cut you open so deeply, the pain is Unforgettable! I cleared my mind with a Joy Ride, contemplating how much I had a Desire for you. You're one of the Golden Boys and I'm willing to go Out On A Limb, to live in that Perfect World along With You.
No longer do I have an Ice Box. I've been Holding Back the Years. It's About Time for me to no longer be Alone. The Seconds of Pleasure of this Fantasy should become a reality. I encourage myself everyday that I will never allow another man to make me Hurt Again. I'm ready to Try Again. Will I Ever have the chance to experience my Love Drug? You make it Mo Better. Despite the pains of Yesterday, there will never come a time when I H.A.T.E.U.
I really believe We Could Be something magical. The Unthinkable (I'm Ready)...so Come With Me. The Point Of It All, is that I Want You. It's Getting Late, and I want You to Stay With Me. Just Say Yes and let the Fireworks begin.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I Hate When...
I have a tendency to say or do too much. Like in the movie Just Wright,
*For those that have not seen the movie just yet, I am about to mention something specific, but it's not a complete spoiler*
Queen Latifah's character spills all the beans about a party she was attending,to her God Sister, who saw an opportunity with the information that she was given, and ran with it! Queen's character went all out and above her norm, but she was outshined. I'm Queen Latifah's character.
Sometimes people get so fed up with the things that I say or do, that they feel it's appropriate to say or do what I won't, without 1)confronting me about being fed up or 2)consulting with me to guarantee that I need a spokesperson. I'd rather you confront me about being fed up than volunteering your services and be my representative. And even if I have given you permission in the past to represent me, doesn't mean it applies to the present or future. It's just like if mom baked cookies. If you want one, you ask. Regardless how many times she makes cookies, you ask. The one time you don't, will be the one time the cookies were for church folks, and you were a greedy cookie whore. Now, she's short some cookies.
I realized today, that I will have to fall back on the amount of information that I let go. I'm cautious already, but only with certain people. I tend to get so excited about the things that are going on in my world, that I forget to snap back into reality and shut the hell up. There's nothing more uncool than someone having a nip slip of your words! It wasn't supposed to happen, but it did!
...there are things that I can change...
I have a tendency to say or do too much. Like in the movie Just Wright,
*For those that have not seen the movie just yet, I am about to mention something specific, but it's not a complete spoiler*
Queen Latifah's character spills all the beans about a party she was attending,to her God Sister, who saw an opportunity with the information that she was given, and ran with it! Queen's character went all out and above her norm, but she was outshined. I'm Queen Latifah's character.
Sometimes people get so fed up with the things that I say or do, that they feel it's appropriate to say or do what I won't, without 1)confronting me about being fed up or 2)consulting with me to guarantee that I need a spokesperson. I'd rather you confront me about being fed up than volunteering your services and be my representative. And even if I have given you permission in the past to represent me, doesn't mean it applies to the present or future. It's just like if mom baked cookies. If you want one, you ask. Regardless how many times she makes cookies, you ask. The one time you don't, will be the one time the cookies were for church folks, and you were a greedy cookie whore. Now, she's short some cookies.
I realized today, that I will have to fall back on the amount of information that I let go. I'm cautious already, but only with certain people. I tend to get so excited about the things that are going on in my world, that I forget to snap back into reality and shut the hell up. There's nothing more uncool than someone having a nip slip of your words! It wasn't supposed to happen, but it did!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
What I Need From You...
grab a hold to reality
understand that i never thought i was what you needed
leave me alone
act your age
call me sometime
allow me to love you
listen to me
find a new haircolor
hug me
buy me some shoes
sing to me
dance with me
pay me back
find me
stop leading me on
stop giving up so quickly
join the revolution
buy a new shirt
invest in yourself
find a job
finish your education
shake my hand
look my way
face the music
take risks
fix your mental
stop smacking
be less dramatic
learn a new language
sing a song
make a journal entry
come see me
cook
add me as a friend
speak your peace
give me some money
ask me a question
hold a conversation
stop jumping to conclusions
be on my page
shave your head
write a note
make it better
give me what i need
ask a question
make suggestions
step on my foot
sneeze
stop forcing things
do the unthinkable...
is to...
grab a hold to reality
understand that i never thought i was what you needed
leave me alone
act your age
call me sometime
allow me to love you
listen to me
find a new haircolor
hug me
buy me some shoes
sing to me
dance with me
pay me back
find me
stop leading me on
stop giving up so quickly
join the revolution
buy a new shirt
invest in yourself
find a job
finish your education
shake my hand
look my way
face the music
take risks
fix your mental
stop smacking
be less dramatic
learn a new language
sing a song
make a journal entry
come see me
cook
add me as a friend
speak your peace
give me some money
ask me a question
hold a conversation
stop jumping to conclusions
be on my page
shave your head
write a note
make it better
give me what i need
ask a question
make suggestions
step on my foot
sneeze
stop forcing things
do the unthinkable...
Friday, May 14, 2010
Accountability
Sometimes we are in positions we feel we can't get out of. Positions we have grown accustomed to. Positions we let slide one too many times, to the point it's not only uncomfortble on the right side, but also on the left. I have been in several positions since '05. Five years later, I have gained the reins and took full control. For the first time in my working career, someone who has known me for only one day, told me, "You would be great in a leadership position!" Not that others haven't noticed, because they have...
Accountability: the quality or state of being accountable; especially : an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one's actions (Mirriam-Webster).
The events that occur in your life are based on your scale of accountability. If you allow nothing but positive things in, then that's the outcome you will receive. Yes, there will be those slip-up moments, but the return or reward is good! You have to be responsible for the actions of life. You cannot feed into the negativity. If someone approaches you with nonsense about a matter that they can gain control over, do like I do. Shut it down before it takes place! It's your own guilt if you don't appreciate me addressing the issue, but understand that I cannot be drug into the madness. I cannot suffer when I don't have to. I cannot progress if you are indirectly undoing the work I have put in. Not all things that put a pause in your life are negative. Sometimes you need those to slow you down, because you are moving too fast to really take in what's being played. It could also mean there needs to be some type of adjustment, because you aren't moving at the pace that you should.
I have gone through a major transformation over the course of a year +. I've dealt with a lot of bull that didn't have to happen. As I got fed up, it began to surface. I started shutting down, and not showing the true bright colors that make me, me! With the new changes in my life, I have already seen where I can go, and my possibilities are endless. I even indirectly stated that today. I've even learned that people say things because they've never been told shut up. Not hush now, or shhh...SHUT UP! STOP! LISTEN! UNDERSTAND! NOW HOW ARE YOU GOING TO CHANGE THIS?! I've learned that people live life based on assumptions and because they think they know how to read a book, they don't need to finish the remaining few chapters, because they've already drawn a conclusion. I'm no one's Cliff Notes. I've learned that people never look in the mirror, even though Micheal Jackson made a song about it (and last I checked, everyone listens to him). Despite what everyone else does, I shut up, I listen, I give feedback, I act on constructive criticism, and I take the time to ask and thank Him for holding me accountable for the things that I encounter on a second by minute basis.
Three wise monkeys...
Sometimes we are in positions we feel we can't get out of. Positions we have grown accustomed to. Positions we let slide one too many times, to the point it's not only uncomfortble on the right side, but also on the left. I have been in several positions since '05. Five years later, I have gained the reins and took full control. For the first time in my working career, someone who has known me for only one day, told me, "You would be great in a leadership position!" Not that others haven't noticed, because they have...
Accountability: the quality or state of being accountable; especially : an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one's actions (Mirriam-Webster).
The events that occur in your life are based on your scale of accountability. If you allow nothing but positive things in, then that's the outcome you will receive. Yes, there will be those slip-up moments, but the return or reward is good! You have to be responsible for the actions of life. You cannot feed into the negativity. If someone approaches you with nonsense about a matter that they can gain control over, do like I do. Shut it down before it takes place! It's your own guilt if you don't appreciate me addressing the issue, but understand that I cannot be drug into the madness. I cannot suffer when I don't have to. I cannot progress if you are indirectly undoing the work I have put in. Not all things that put a pause in your life are negative. Sometimes you need those to slow you down, because you are moving too fast to really take in what's being played. It could also mean there needs to be some type of adjustment, because you aren't moving at the pace that you should.
I have gone through a major transformation over the course of a year +. I've dealt with a lot of bull that didn't have to happen. As I got fed up, it began to surface. I started shutting down, and not showing the true bright colors that make me, me! With the new changes in my life, I have already seen where I can go, and my possibilities are endless. I even indirectly stated that today. I've even learned that people say things because they've never been told shut up. Not hush now, or shhh...SHUT UP! STOP! LISTEN! UNDERSTAND! NOW HOW ARE YOU GOING TO CHANGE THIS?! I've learned that people live life based on assumptions and because they think they know how to read a book, they don't need to finish the remaining few chapters, because they've already drawn a conclusion. I'm no one's Cliff Notes. I've learned that people never look in the mirror, even though Micheal Jackson made a song about it (and last I checked, everyone listens to him). Despite what everyone else does, I shut up, I listen, I give feedback, I act on constructive criticism, and I take the time to ask and thank Him for holding me accountable for the things that I encounter on a second by minute basis.
Three wise monkeys...
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