LOL Files: Part One

Ok, so here’s the thing. I haven’t talked to you in almost two months and I think that is absolutely ridiculous. The last time I heard from you was when you posted a message on my Facebook wall. I believe the message was something to the effect of: this is not about you, I’ve been busy with class. I’m not really sure what your schedule is or was during that time, but surely you could have called me since then. Although you’re probably thinking that I also could have called you—don’t. I tried numerous times to get in contact with you during the middle of my exams, because I WANTED to, while you on the other hand, while also busy, did not and chose instead to not return my phone calls or make your own. Surely, in the past eight weeks you have found some down time to return a phone call I made to you so long ago or to call me of your own volition. While you have made it no secret that you are just “not that kind of person” (assuming that I am) you would have at least called to see what has been going on in my life, since you seem to choose not to talk about what goes in yours (at least with me).


I still check my Facebook regularly and yes I check in you from time to time (your status mainly) and I’m sorry for any drama or any negative thing going on in your life. However, what I cannot do is continue to let our friendship go down the drain and while I could have easily given you a call to tell you all this, I thought it would be best if you read it and really tried to understand where I was coming from. If you think this is all a little to “extra” then ignore it and don’t worry about it; if you decide you have the time and the desire to talk with me, CALL me—no emails, no IM, no Facebook.

The laughter is not at the person, but more so about the informatin within the message. However, I just can't stop cracking up at volition...OH BOY! WHEW! Let me clear the tears from my eyes! My cheeks are hurting from laughing so hard in short spurts. Interestingly enough, as requested, a response will be given in due time...after all the laughter subsides.

Only Temporary

Just trying to stay positive...

Just as no one prepares you for parenting, your first bicycle ride, your first time eating exotic foods, etc., you are never prepared for life. Sometimes you just have to stop and take a breather and pray and be patient and pray again. I have to remind myself and others, that this thing we are going through is just a phase and it too shall pass.

If You Don't Like It

My suggestion would be...

Go kick rocks!

100 Strong

Security...

This is my 100th post. I probably should have more than that, but hey...

Another reason I chose this title, is because a lot has been dwelling in the cubicles of my mind. Yes, my brain is divided in sectors. There is the CEO all the way down to the cleanup crew. Mainly, the focus has been finding security.

Security in my relationships: with God, men, my father, my mother, etc.
Security in my future: job, money, etc.
Security with myself: looks, vision of what I am supposed to be, etc.

When I thought the front and back entrances were on lockdown, the emergency exits were not. And the end result, all types of people and things running amok. Therefore, I am not quite functioning properly and am having trouble bringing things back to order.

But one good thing about eventually coming to order, I have a wonderful staff of people who are supporting me and my decisions, and regardless of the outcome, they aren't going to leave their desks and walk out of the front door. They are rooting me on! And I greatly appreciate that. When things are brought back together, I guarantee that you all will be greatly rewarded...I promise.