MIXED EMOTIONS

I feel like..............

I don't give myself enough credit. As stated in the previous post, there are things that have stayed with me, from childhood. As I also stated, it has effected my daily life and daily activities. But the good part about it all, I have come to realize over the years that these words are not true. That all the things that I went through whether it was with a boy, that he liked me, and we all know (in most cases) that when boys pick on, hit, etc. a girl, 8 times out of 10, they're in 'kiddy-love'.

As I tell my friends and people who don't know me, I love everyone. Everyone has something to offer and we can learn from each other. HATE is a bad thing and it does me no good to burn bridges. There are some people I have used them to develop a template for future friends, coworkers, study buddies, or even love interests!

But as these happy times are diverted into the reality I sometimes wish didn't exist, I end up feeling mixed. I get caught in the middle of my thoughts and tend to tense up and develop, to what most people will see, a nonchalant attitude. As I once found out on Tickle, I'm a Red:

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

Give or take some of it, it pretty much sums me up. So whenever you come across me, and I'm happy and then all of a sudden, there's a shift in my attitude, it soon shall pass.