Dating Your Mother

To quote one of my best friends, "She must be retarded..."

Sorry it's been a minute, but it's been a minute since I could get online, due to moving situations and what not. Anywhoo...

As you know, the incident did occur with me and another woman about my ex. Since that incident occurred, my ex has expressed that he is not mad at me, because we got way back, but yet, he continues to bring up what happened. Also, I did meet up with him recently and as I told a friend of mine, I didn't feel anything from seeing him again. I didn't talk to him like I wanted to, but the ironic thing about the whole situation is, as I was driving, I felt like the radio was talking to me.

The Michael Basden show was on, talking about "the other woman" and how some women get involved in a relationship with a man, knowing he's with someone else. Letoya Luckett was playing, along with a slew of songs dealing with leaving 'him' alone and "the other woman".

But as we sat in my car, he just stared at me, and repeated how he was glad to see me and what not, and is really anxious about me getting an apartment. I had to express to him that until I get a job, there will be no apartment. He kept saying how "his woman" was going to call around looking for him and what not, but he didn't care, cause he was with his baby. He said I would always be his baby. But as I said before, the only feelings I had were the feelings of accomplishment; I got him away from her. His 51 year old girlfriend. His mother! Now I don't mean that he literally is with his mother, but she is 51, and apparently, he doesn't see a problem with that.

Again, I haven't discussed my disgust with him. He will be receiving some money on the first and since we met up last week, I haven't spoken to him. I've decided that once he does get things situated with his car and what not, I told him, he needs to roll to where I am or we meet on my end of town. Then, that way we can talk. Like it felt like old times, because we were both lying to someone about our location and I enjoyed being in his arms. I've always enjoyed that.

My best friend and I were eating dinner one night and I sent my ex a text message to find out how old she was. And he replied with 51. My friend and I just burst out in laughter. He said, "She's clearly retarded, because we already know he is!" We couldn't stop laughing. He also said, he sees a pattern in his female friends that were raised in a single parent home (w/o a father). I'll admit, that that may be a factor, but how much of a role it plays, I don't know.

I am just so disgusted because I've always told him to get something better. Get a 30 year old that looks 25, who has a bigger ass, or prettier smile! Don't get some bitch that has sagging breasts and sounds like your grandmother, who I can't even fight, cause I gotta respect the fact she's my elder!

And what makes the situation worse, is that I'm going crazy not being able to talk to him or text him, cause he ran out of minutes on his phone. So I've been occupying my time with other things. Things just are really weird. He thinks I'm with someone and I keep telling him I'm not. Although, it wouldn't matter, because we are just friends. But his behavior....its just....