Alone

Really sucks...

I really hate being and feeling alone. I even feel like I have left myself alone. I'm just not happy. A test on blogrings once told me my inner child is sad. I have almost 24 years of catching up on things that I never thought about before. I have to find ways to complete the puzzle. It's as if I opened up the box to put the puzzle together, and I only have one of the five pieces. What am I to do with that?!

As I was going through someone's blog on Xanga, they said something that I tend to forget. When one thing bad leaves you, something 10x better will come along. For me, it's not so much that I need to have someone, but more like I just need someone that is there consistently, that will always be available. Someone that will always have my back regardless. Someone I can really confide in with every detail of my life and no judgement will be passed. And although I have friends like that, I still have a void of that sigfig.

Plus, what really gets me, is it seems that men don't want to express how they feel, especially when I really believe that a guy, being that he is a guy, should be able to express what he wants when he wants. I mean, who am I?! I am no threat to you whatsoever! I am not the type to be intimidating. I don't know. I just really just want to be happy...