I Don't Understand

I just don't get it...

I have yet to grasp how I have made it as far as I have in life. I continuously doubt myself and my abilities (especially if I think I am not doing well or know I am behind), I slack from time to time, and to most people who meet me (or know me), my response time and decision making is backward.

I just don't get it! As you may recall, depending on which blog you have read, I have been taking a class for a week for my job. There are two parts. Well, the 2nd half of the week, we discussed Health and honestly, ALL of it went over my head. The other portion which was taught earlier in the week, I understood it, but not enough to pass majority of that section to give me the most points on the exam and still pass. Each section is equally weighted and then there are additional questions.

Point in saying all that is I have totally BONKED out! I was on a roll until one of my best friends called. After I hung up the phone, the information was not retained. I took the practice tests and I still didn't do well.

The penalty for all of this? I HAVE NO CLUE! Honestly, I don't think there is one...besides paying for the test again. I would just have to inform my boss that I was not able to pass and ask what needs to be done from that point on, besides reschedule the test.

I think I can add this to my list of events that continue to haunt me....