Secret Identity

Something to uphold...

We all struggle with this desire to be something other than what we are. We sometimes wish we could go back and change the things that we've done just to see what the new outcome will be. Others tend to go on with life as two, sometimes three different people. Some identities are good, while others are used for purposes of deceit. We show what needs to be shown at the time of interaction. For example, when you are at church, you wear your church hat, along with the church fasade. Once you've stepped off church property, you go sell drugs, rob banks, and prostitute...

Or like today, I watched Dateline, and this lady pretended to be her deceased twin sister, to find out how and who murdered her. I thought it was kind of weird, because she stepped into the life of her sister, but yet, was getting information from the people she was around, who knew she was deceased. I didn't quite understand how that was, but....

I too, sometimes carry a secret identity. The only difference is, it leaves me at the very second it needs to interact. I like to absorb everything I see and hear. It preps me for the possibilities. If I am in an area that is a little snobby, I need to prepare to be as impressive as possible, therefore, I won't look like a fool. If I am in the 'hood, I need to make an effort to let the next Crazy over know that I'm a bigger Crazy.

As I learned some years back, sometimes it takes that one major event in one's life for a serious personality change to take effect. I'm just hoping it is for a positive and not negative. I think I will quickly adjust to what's happening to me. I just hope it's not forced, because I tend to have mixed emotions and get them intertwined with one anther, confusing my judgement.